it gets tough sometimes....to control the inner pain..
i always wondered how to react to death...of both body as well as the soul...
In my mind i know some part of my soul is dying a slow but sure death....it wants to do so many things before it says goodbye....sometimes it pains...sometimes it jus doesnt feel anything.

The understanding that no medicine or treatment exists to mend my soul...it gets so confusing and frustating to just sit and watch....you still have to enjoy other aspects of life and fullfill the duties that you are supposed to do.....
Nothing appears out of ordinary..nothing appears exciting....there are no more eureka moments of life..just chugging along.....
there is no dip in the quality of the output but the zeal for the output is lost.
There are no more exciting jobs but just jobs.....

it does get tough sometimes...to control the inner pain.