Candle Light Treatment.....

Yeterday was one off those days in my life as a doctor that shows the varied aspects of living a life of a doctor here in rural india....
The day started of with me reaching late at the Primary Healh Care Facility at Deoli....there were lots of expecting mothers there for me to sign off their referrals to the central hospital...after having signed them off i sat in the office and started my OPD...the first few patients were the usual upper respiratory tract infections and diarrhoeas...we as interns get real anxious to see a small child walking towards us as we have very limited knowledge of the drug dosages to prescribe to small children.
Then there was the first bad incident of the day...some patients are really pain in the ass...that patient was a known case of hypertension and diabetes...his BP a day before was recorded as 140/90 mm hg and then the smart guy not satisfied with the high bp went to a local quack who said there is no BP problem prescribed some sedatives and sent him off....so this guy comes today delibrately not taking his BP pills...jus to prove me wrong and create a tussle at the PHC..
i vented all my anger to the asshole and shot him from the office.....
Rest of the day passed off peacefullly..with around 60 patients seen..i was somewhat tired and went to catch up some sleep as i had the night duty also...my co-intern took my place in the office....

Around 6 pm all the other interns left and i was to remain at the PHC for the night emergency duty....
and then when it all started!!!!!

Rains unleashed upon us like angered clouds as we were left helpless....electricity went off, not to return for next 12 hours....there was acute shortage of diesel so we could not fire up the genertor....candles were light as we waited for the Gods to intervene...
The patients started to pour in too...the rains were taking its toll..
there were a couple of accidents which required suturing....a candle light suturing was done to best of my abilities of working in the darkness....
There was a patient of acute abdomen who came at around 11 pm...the poor guy probably had a koch's abdomen but we being at a PHC couldnt use any investigations..(For my readers of developed countries...we dont have even a Total Leucocyte count here in a PHC, no lab, no Sonography, No xray...its purely clinical diagnosis that we work on!!)...the patient just had 100 rs with him( around 2 dollars)......we asked his relatives to shift him to the central hospital immediately but they couldnt afford the transport and our own ambulance had already gone to shift an accident patient to the central hospital...
he didnt have any money for medications...we managed to start some hydration and also gave him analgesic injections...but he just lay there waiting for death to intervene....he was a farmer by occupation, had taken loan on interest and simply had no money....Slowly he too withered into darkness in front of my eyes.....my own frustation was that i personally had brought just some 50 rs for the night......
there were few more patients as the night and the rains continued....
I managed some sleep around 2 am....
i got up around 6 am and went to the local bus stand for a ride back home.
Seeing me with a stethoscope dangling around my neck...a local private bus operater offered me a complimentry ride back to my hostel sayin " Doctor Saheb...kal raat apne bahut mehnat ki...and so on..."....i found out he was one of the patienst i had seen yesterday night that i have sutured in darkness....

Life turns a full circle in matter of a day...its so varied in its approach that some times even Gods dot know what to expect.....

Is jahan mein kash mohbat na hoti,
To safer-e jindagi mein mithash nahi hoti,
Milti agar bewafaon ko sajaye maut to ,
Deewano ki kaber itni udaas na hoti !!

ek choti jehi koshish...

ek choti jehi koshish
Tere mere Pyaar di khaani chete ayi hai
Amberan de vich aaj fir kaali ghata chayi hai
vagg di haneri te dar jeha lagda
Dil vala diva pamukke kangu magda
Sunn da vichon fir tanna us jagg da
masti oh pyaar vaali fir aaj chaayi hai
tere mere pyaar di khaani chete ayi hai


Bath de si ral mil piplan di chavan thale
bhul de nahi aaj v vatye jehre aapan challe
ucchi ucchi geet gaoyne baagi bath aapan kalle
Raat vali kali chup sandesha koi lyi hai
tere mere pyaar di khaani chete aayi hai

aaj v oh yaad hai jad miss callan mardi si
bebe sanve mainu jad Rimmy tu pukardi si
yaad vich teri har aathru jo venda si
dil vali daddi peer fir aaj chayi hai
tere mere pyaar di kahaani chete aayi hai

Mainu chad jad kise hor di tu ho gayi
os din eh chandri muskaan kite koh gayi
birhan naal kurmayi sadi osse din ho gayi
Maut vaali sool sade dil nu eh moh gayi
Kabran vichon awaaz AMAR lagda kise ne lagayi hai
tere mere pyaar di khaani chete ayi hai

If you are in transition...read this

i am currently in such state that i have completely lost faith in love and its meaning. I feel its better live a life and not think about what could have been and wht could be....
the following Lyrics from movie Music & Lyrics still inspire me sometimes......

[Verse 1]
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

[Verse 2]
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!

[Middle-eight]
(Drew Barrymore)
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!


Love is Like walking down a road holding hands. Sometimes you fall down coz of a problem or whtever and the other person extends her hand and lifts u up to go ahead......

Love is still meaningless to me

In search of a Meaning...

Good night and good luck
Zin

The Turn-Tables of Life...

Life sometimes takes unexpected turns...
No matter how many plans you make...a single moment changes your life in such a manner that you are only left with memories....
There exists a dilemma in everybody's mind that whether to do the right thing or the things that most people do.
In everybody's life there comes a time when one has to stand up...for himself...for what he stands for.
he is offered a cross-road to choose an easier path and escape away or to follow the rough path and get declared as a maniac or a damn good winner...
every success has its fallacies and every loss has its golden moments.
Those are the moments for what we play for...for in the game called life there are no winners or losers....everyone dies eventually....everyone wins eventually...

till then take care
goodnight
cao
Dr Zin

Another Performance...he is going to rock!!

My Cousin at Sa Re Ga Ma Pa Challenge