The season of uncertainities is back fellas!!....exams done wid and results waited!!...and trust me this is as bad as da exams!..( or da bad results for that matter!)..
Now that exams and done with, i am left wid dis sudden withdrawal symptoms!.....15 months of intensive studyin sessions has left its mark..it has been a few days since i have picked up a book and now i get all these sudden panic attacks of reading something.....
Someday i pick up a novel or jus a newspaper!...its like da hunger pangs!...the goddammm urge to open a book and read....
once in a while i do look up a question and feel the same old warm(?) feelings of solving nutcase questions!..
and waiting for results has its own issues...i have already cross checked the answers THRICE!...and every time the expected result comes out on da borderline!...and thts real SCARY!!.
Nor is it comfortably above the cut off nor is it depressingly well below..its jus in that zone, that creates enough hope...and loads of depression in case it doesnt turn out well..
sometimes i wonder is it same everywhere...in every field or is it jus me?...then i guess that its everywhere but only thing that makes it scarier is 15 months in any other field will get me somethin!..here its ALL OR NONE!....and here it is at the age of 26!!...
i tell you being 26 and still being dependent on one's parents is like swallowing your pride and being helpless every morning....though nobody says anything or complains anything in my case....but one's own mind kills ya..
At a time when my old school mates are havin kids or raising em, i am still struggling to settle down and THINK of a family life!....
Anyways, enough of my pangs...this can go on and on and this is the story of every doc of this world!..
St. Valentines day....thats the day when the results will start come pourin in...what a irony!!..the AIIMS freaks couldnt have chosen a better day for results..Sadists...AIIMS ppl are jus SADISTS...they find it pleasurable to see misery!!..
till then and till da good fortunes....
Zubin.....
